These days I have gone through a very strong existential crisis about my career and everything I dream and desire, many changes in my life I do and I wonder if this is the time.
I've been doing various projects that I thought maybe in a moment that this would be just the opportunity arose, as everything that has happened in my life, the circumstances are, and live and try to take them all the time to figure out what they want me, and I'm right there at that time.
I always thought that all of reality tells me that I always say something, and that part of my role in my life is find out what I mean.
One night Jose and I sat on the pier talking perfectly remember having said these words: "It's amazing what the pain in my life, I feel that comes as a call to wake up, to stay alert and to remind me that not everything is under my control and what I do is deal with it, learn and follow "... the next day my father died.
I experienced some very painful, which many still live more, but so far the hardest and most difficult has been the loss of this being that really got to love deeply.
is true, everything has its time, I had my time to grow, to study, prepare to enjoy life without worries, then came the time to mature, working, suffering for a loved one is born sick and struggling every day to stay, then time to get married and discover life and love are not just what you want to make them because then you live in a lie, then came the time of divorce, but finally learning that you plan your life circumstances continue to arrive and will be presented, and all must learn, then it came time to live alone, to rediscover who he was and that gave me all these situations, the time to put into practice everything I had been given. Then came the time for love, to meet Jose and feel I deserve to finally just give me what I want, what you deny me I will never be allowed nor will I be given.
Then came the time of greatest pain of losing my father, to stay with his last picture on the breakfast table and saying goodbye not even imagine that never see him again.
From then begins the time to walk with a sense of facing life with courage and do not let me run over. Sofia was born and with it comes the best time of my life, my work time, the office, to be a mother and give my best but almost always feel that I am the best person, it came time to overcome my fears more depth and feeling that I've never really been alone.
are past now, time to write, to speak out, to re-take the road to be built with other circumstances, to reevaluate everything I had, what I have and what I have achieved, but above all to love with passion all what I have been given.
Thanks to my family, my sisters, my mother has always loved me as I am, not even explain the why of her affection, thanks to José for joining me in this way so complicated, I'm not a person at all easy, thanks to Mary for teaching sun with its existence, thanks to Adda Sofia for being the little person who now leads me to make sense of my life. Thanks to my father that transcends every day in my life, and finally THANKS TO ALL OF YOU , all those friends I have met on this path of my life and this wonderful virtual world that has helped me discover a part of me that was not anywhere else, really thanks.
And really I say that if everything has its time and I think in my life today has ushered in unprecedented times.
A kiss to all.
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